birthdays

so friday i turned 18.
im not sure but i believe that is supposed to be somewhat of a mile stone in my life.
i dont feel it.
the total "happy birthdays" i got was 5.
now some people may think thats sad but the people i heard it from
i know really care about me.
it wasnt one of those things where i had to say it was my birthday they just remembered.
it was a really good day and now that i think about it
i have not been sad in awhile. atleast not that gut wrenching cry yourself to sleep kind of sad.
im getting better and that gives me hope.